Got a secret,can you keep it?

behind many smiles and much laughter,a secret laceration in her eyes can actually be hurting,inside she's breaking down,but on the outside she doesn't show it. her family are at war,fighting and arguing at any chance they get at each other. her only choice is to be strong,because telling people about your feelings can sometimes be so hard,so hard to define. your lost,you feel hopless,you have lost most of your friends,who meant the world to you,and everytime you see each other theres nothing but a reflection of a battlefeild between you all,remains of a war. you feel your family are ganging up on you,at any chance they get. pushing on your emotions as far as they can,picking out your every faults,and you just to remind you your just about to be replaced,how much they're looking forward to the replacement and how she will be perfect..i just wanna run away,into a world,where i wont get judged,where there is no wars,where everythings perfect,but that's not gunna happen. because perfect doesn't exsist. you stare deeply into his dark brown eyes and explore them profoundly,he stares back,blindly of your pain past yours. you close your eyes,on the edge of tears but he don' know that,they disappear and don't return..just want a little space from all the presure of this,just want to be left alone...saying your fine can hide a million tears..
-i'm on the edge of breaking down.

i love you xander,so much.
i want to keep you like thsi forever,because you make me happy and smile. if i could be with anyone it would still be you. you're beautiful in my eyes and the most amazing boy i could ever meet. i love you with all my heart baby!

-Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters.

muddy arse from falling..

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along.

but what can you do?
she's perfect. she's tall.
your you. your small.
she's beautiful,your not.
she has the power,to make anyone or anything fall in love with her.  she hates you,but you don't know why. the relfection of a battlefeild,shines upon you both when you pass each other in the corridoor,friction burns,looks hurt. she has the chance to take something from you,you know she'll take it. people look up to her as god,expect you. you carry on walking,instead of admiring her every move getting on with your own life. you try to smile at her,but she looks down at you because of her stuck up, arrogent, snobby personality. her brown eyes,over powering yours down,and her ability to turn everyone and anything agaisnt you hurts.
but,but. i don' wanna be perfect. i think i'm just happy being me. i don' care what people think about me because i like being me,weird,abit crazy at times and probably a big loser at others..just wish others would think this about themselfs too..

not really bothered..

in the end,don' you think personality wins over everything else?

hi plastic bag